Calais McSheffrey
Winner - 2020
I was born, raised and educated in the beautiful cultural mash of South Auckland. My relationship with poetry started through spoken word in high school. I’m currently finishing my BA focusing on Māori and Indigenous rights at Victoria University of Wellington. These pieces are part of a portfolio where I translated what I couldn’t express onto paper in the hopes that whoever reads them aloud would be taken on the same journey of emotions they took me.
— Calais McSheffrey
Re[son]ate[s]
These kids play in the streets like danger’s their home
Playing ‘chicken’ with trucks and sirens
Like another brown boy death is just another brown boy dead
Gunshots a lullaby
Flashing lights the alarm
Streets bleed red and blue
Gang signs a mother’s tongue
Doorstepping cause nobody will open their doors
For us
Unless it’s a cell
Like another arrest just adds to the legacy
Because we are danger itself
Strapped in more ways than one
So we resonate with the streets
Lay our laments in the asphalt
Hold vigils under lampposts
And build burial sites along pavements
In memory of our sons.
Internal
This is a call to the wind
Fill the cavities in my teeth
Choke me with your presence.
Lungs drown in too much, too little
Muscles clench at a breeze
Like touch reignites self loathing
Be gentle.
Lay your kiss upon my collarbone
Graze over the stretch marks
Make remarks about them
Spit on them if you have to.
Trace shivers down my spine
Hold my thighs hostage again
Caress my ankles
Wrap around them
And catch me as I fall
Into the abyss.